Life is a disaster. I graduated with a graduate degree this past March. The past decade has been really tough. I haven't had any relief since the mid 90's. Sometimes I want to astral project away from all these problems and stay in the astral world.
I can't get on my feet. I have hundreds of thousands in student loan debt. I don't make enough to pay my living expenses. I constantly have to borrow money to pay rent and other bills. I write on several blogs. Google Panda impacted my traffic, taking my domain portfolio that once generated 40,000-50,000 unique visits per month to barely producing 200 unique per day on 360 sites. It's too tough to figure out how to make it through this chronic stress.
You probably notice that I write articles on astral projection. My
BoxOfficeWeekend.com and
ADSenses.com also feature astral projection articles. I understand the astral travel process. I barely generate any traffic on this blog in result of my astral projection articles. On my domain blog, I produced over 600 quality articles over the past year. The traffic is mediocre at best.
What do I do to make it? My college degrees are essentially worthless in this economy. I'm drowning in living expenses. California living is a nightmare. Rent is insanely high. I have this force keeping me away from accomplishing my screenwriting dream.
The Hollywood dream has been going strong since 1994. My entire existence has revolved around this Hollywood dream. You prepare for many years to live your dream, then you assume an opportunity will surface to remove you from the quicksand.
When the moment finally arrives, you fail miserably. Almost three years ago, a Disney screenwriter once asked for my business card. Prior to leaving for the restaurant, I left my business cards at home. That was a big mistake!
My lack of preparation deflated the best chance at accomplishing the Hollywood dream. The screenwriter was turned off. I noticed her demeanor. I knew ahead of time the business cards would create problems. I searched all through my wallet, hoping that a business would pop out. It never did.
A few years ago, I took part in the COOP screenwriting content. I wrote five scenes, but never once placed in any position. The weekly winners seemed to lack screenwriting experience with formatting a screenplay and employing techniques to enhance the storyline. They somehow won the $3,000 weekly prizes. I also wrote a scene for another short script contest. I scored an 88 percent score. I needed a 91 to make it to the next round. That's life I guess.
These moments are meager mishaps as compared to past events. I'm drawn to bad luck. Maybe I need a karma reading to improve my situation. No matter how hard I try, I move further away from my goals. In 2004, my car was stolen. That created serious problems. In 2000, a bad roommate caused me to go homeless for a year. Another time I blew out my knee playing basketball.
Recently, I got a spider bite which got infected and required surgery. Then, two months later another area developed an infection due to the previous surgery. The highlight of my year is my first two surgeries and a graduate degree.
A positive aspect of this year is applying metaphysics into writing. In December, a psychic told me to write about metaphysics. I finally listened to her after metaphysics content surfaced in my e-mail box such as the Metaphysical Film festival and the metaphysics writing workshop at the Los Angeles Writer's Store. You start to believe you are destined to write about metaphysical content.
I located some really good domain names and began writing about astral projection. Previously, I wrote about decoding dreams. Nonetheless, I reflect back on astral projection in movies in old astral horror movies. A Nightmare on Elm Street made good use of the out-of-body-experience. I find that astral projection is an extremely interesting process with unlimited opportunities to explore the unimaginable. The concept is underutilized in Hollywood.
At the beginning of this post, I wished to astral project to the astral world to remain there forever. However, I realized that my passion for screenwriting restored my dream. I realize that it has been a long tough journey over the past 17 years. You have to keep fighting.
Two psychics told me that I have a black cloud over me. It's an evil that is beyond God or anything in this physical world. No matter how hard I try to accomplish my dreams, I must get rid of these dark magic put on me 6 years ago or else my dreams will be unattainable.
I have a dream. I know exactly how to accomplish the dream. However, my financial situation is holding me back. I don't have a moment of relief to write several screenplays. I can't build a film company without the funding. What do I do? Should I invest $300 in crystal treatment to get rid of this so-called evil surrounding me to improve my situation? Do I believe there is an evil force holding me back?
When I reflect back on my life, you start to see a pattern. I think anything is possible. If you can astral project into astral worlds, then another negative person can put a black curse over you. I don't feel as frustrated as I did when writing the first few sentences in this post. Writing is therapeutic. It's free therapy. Thanks for reading.
